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May 12, 2007

Existence: A Parable

Written under the combined inspiration of some thoughts of our Site-mistress, a reading of the Book of Revelation, a cool old Twilight Zone episode, and indigestion. A pre-emptive astaghfir'llah to all.

We are bored, the Deity said.

Indeed yes, the Deity replied.

We have created an infinity of games to amuse Ourself but We always win, the Deity commented.

We are omnipotent, everything is rigged, the Deity noted. We always zap the bad guy, no matter how many levels he climbed.

We even let Satan get to Babel Tower Level 24 but We knew already he would go there and what would happen, the Deity observed. Zap! Pshhhh!

We are bored, the Deity said.

Well, the Deity commented, We could lose a round, even a whole game, if We wanted. Or two or more. Omnipotence has its privileges.

Yes, the Deity said, but We would still know We will lose. We'll still be in total awareness. Omniscience has its disappointments.

We are bored, the Deity said.

Well, the Deity offered, We could un-rig it. We could make players who possess uncontrolled free judgment -- sure we would know and control ultimately -- but they will surprise us. They can play each other too! More surprises.

Kind of a paradox there, the Deity mused. But We'll come back to that later. We're liking this idea.

There was silence in Heaven for one hour.

"Let us make creatures and game-characters then," the Deity proclaimed, " according to Our own form and likeness in that they can make unpredictable steps, original choices of their own."

And there were such creatures.

And the Deity had a ball.

There were surprise triumphs and torments and original turns and new rules. New zaps! New record scores reached. One team formed and then another spontaneously, and they even played against the others, with hidden points suddenly found by them, and moves unprogrammed recurring again and again. They would team up and sometimes the Deity would join in, or tweak the game with a new twist and watched them react and adjust.

Then it dawned on the Deity. And the Deity spoke up.

The creatures that make choices beyond prediction, beyond the programming, the Deity commented, well, when they do that they must perceive and understand and aspire on their own, in their very selves. They are aware of themselves and the environment they are in. They desire, and they wonder. And they are uncertain whither they come and whither they go. They are at one time bored, then another in terror despairing of escape and meaning. They feel the negativity of loss and uncertainty. They feel things called pain and suffering when they lose or are zapped; and in all that they have not what We have: the absolute certainty and fullness of knowledge and power to absolutely be sure that it'll all be OK in the end.

Their existence, the Deity added, to them is one of wholly uncertain meaning, if any purpose at all, and perhaps, the existence of some, many, or all may be one of pain without hope. Only that way are their choices truly authentic and challenging to Us.

Really? the Deity thought. Wow, that's gotta suck.

Posted by Matthew Hogan at May 12, 2007 10:03 AM
Filed Under: Egghead Stuff , Random Personal , Religion


Comments

heavy, and true! you've clearly DMed before

Posted by: johnnaa at May 15, 2007 12:28 PM

I played role-playing games ages ago when there were plastic counters and hex papers (I first thought DMed was a stock ticker for Diagnostic Materials Inc. or something); not much of D&D (our Sitegoddess has knowledge of how more modern games work). Some passing familiarity with video games myself.

Main reflection is A Nice Place To Visit, a superb episode of the original twilight zone.

Posted by: matthew hogan at May 15, 2007 12:41 PM

Hmmmmmm

Posted by: eerie [TypeKey Profile Page] at May 19, 2007 11:21 AM

Have you read JURGEN by James Branch Cabell? I'm trying to remember what the two things Koschei the Deathless (who made all things as they are) can't be. One of them is proud (because, after all, he made all things as they are).

Posted by: Tom Scudder at May 19, 2007 11:46 AM

"Hmmmmmm"

Hunh?

Posted by: matthew hogan at May 19, 2007 07:13 PM

The gods are angry that I am . . . {edited for length}

Posted by: The gods are angry that I am educating Manifest Destiny's next target:::India. Money is not an issu at May 28, 2007 09:29 PM

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